For about a couple of months I have been angry as all get out. I thought I had it solved but it has reared it’s ugly head again. I get what is happening. I fully understand but why did it rear up again. T is grief pure and simple.
On Sunday, I saw my brother was on Facebook. It brought all the feelings. I get it. I am the last in a long line of siblings. I get it we will all die sometime. I guess I never fully realized I might be the last living sibling. He lives in another province. Out of sight out of mind. On Sunday he was on Facebook. I was okay with it and happy to see he could still go on FB. On Monday, it all hit. Last week our company put out new Covid-19 rules. They are being sticklers and if we leave province we don’t get paid for their demand of self isolating for 14 days. It is okay if you can work from home, but not many of us can. When I went in on Monday, I was full of anger. Tuesday the same. Last night I sat myself down, had a good prayer and thinking time. It isn’t the Company’s fault, it is just another COVID thing. I feel so bad for all the people who couldn’t go to weddings, funerals, for visits etc. I understood this all before, but now that COVID isn’t going away any time soon, there will be a whole lot more personal things all people will not be able to do. I am sure we all will get hit with more realizations again but it was a great reminder for me.
Blessings
Jean
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